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  A brief testimony: 

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In my youth I was bullied often and I felt without a place because I was always different. Around high-school the rejection I faced from others transformed into a desire for me to have attention and love from anyone by any means necessary especially people who were like the ones who rejected me in my youth. Looking for a place I went online where I felt more appreciated for myself. I would hide my online relationships from my parents. The people I met online, many older than me would often expose me to inappropriate things and would ask me to do things I felt uncomfortable with. Feeling like those people were all I eventually let my guards down and did what they asked of me. I had no respect for myself and enjoyed being used rather than alone. 

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 My actions caught up to me one day and by God's grace I saw that my deeds were wicked. I told my mother about the people I was talking to and the things I did. I was depressed and alone and I turned to what I believed to be the best option, the Lord. It started with reading the new testament and overtime I'd discover websites and videos from multiple locations that helped me learn more about what I believed in. I wasn't perfect at finding online teachers. Sometimes they were true to the word and some people were not those i should have followed. One day I came across a website that presented the gospel to me using the scriptures. The man said that by believing in the scriptures telling about the death, burial and resurrection of Jesus I would be saved forever. I out loud prayed saying I believed Jesus died, was buried and rose again on the third day. 

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 Soon after that I would immerse myself in learning doctrine and developing convictions. However, in my learning under people, I would neglect to learn under the holy spirit by personal bible reading. I would also begin to take on other people's convictions that were sometimes not biblical and I'd treat them as such. This method of learning caused me much anxiety when my online teachers would not say the same things and I began so hyper-focused on myself that I began to think I was too bad for God's forgiveness. 

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 Only recently was I brought back to the simplicity of the gospel of faith in Christ, as a sinner...Jesus Christ took on all my sins on himself and died in my place taking on my punishment and by faith in Jesus Christ...believing on him I'm saved and washed by the blood of Jesus making me clean by his remission of my sins. I now know that all the attention and worth I need comes from the love of a strong righteous man, my father God, who will never stop forgiving me or wanting my attention. So now, by following the guide of my heavenly father through reading his word I will document my growth being washed clean by Jesus Christ. I strive to obey, fear and love my God and please him in all things and this page documents just that.  

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Topics to expect on my blog:

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